These days

These days are full, I am reading in every nook and cranny of time, squeezing in studying at every-turn, trying to get outside whenever I can spare a moment....

This is probably the most challenging academic season I've ever experienced in my life.

It's like I'm training for a marathon (only my physical body is probably getting worse instead of better ;)

I work, study, go to school, drive, read, sleep and repeat.
Most days I wake up and think, "the night's already over, really?" and feel no more rested than when I laid down. It's crazy.

But, you know what?
The feeling I have overwhelmingly is...Awe. This is awesome, and I am so thankful.

- I am thankful for all bits of knowledge that are soaking into my head
- I am thankful that (despite moments of exhaustion) I have the energy to push myself and persevere
- I am thankful that my little car is getting me to all the places I need to be
- I am thankful for my job, and that I can turn 'no-show' appointments into study hours
- I am thankful for a safe home, and my comfy bed to collapse into each night
- I am thankful for my sister and Grandpa up-keeping the yard while I'm gone
- I never thought I'd say this....but, I'm thankful for drive-throughs
- I am SO thankful, for my growing confidence in my skills
- I am thankful (most of the time) for professors that challenge and make your work Hard
- I am thankful for my clients who let me listen to them
- I am thankful for tea (for ever and always)
- I am thankful for routines in my schedule that keep me sane (ie Mars on Sundays)
- I am thankful for laughter (especially at myself...keeps things less serious)

I could (and probably should go on). There is so much goodness in this season of learning for me.
It's really a funny relationship.....Bittersweet (but heavy on the 'sweet' part). Often, I think..."I just want to go home after a day of work like a 'normal' person" or "I just really want to play with my friends" :) I know though, that I will probably look back and think that this is one of the chapter of my life that has really made me "me".

Grateful.
Now, to go study for my Bipolar and other Mood Disorder Dx test....